I love you.. always

It has been a long time...

since I last came on here and wrote something....

but today I just felt like I had to write something ...

It is important that the person I love remembers that I did not forget him. That I love him just as much.. or even more then the day before ...

Even though I not always show it I am always greatful you are here with me, or when I can just hear the sound of your voice....

I know I can be stupid, or even a pain in the ass at times ...

But generally overall I just love you even if I do not show you.that at times...

I do not have one bad feeling towards you at or in my heart ...
Sometimes I say awfull things, but that just means I lost my way... and lost the right words that belong to describe you....

Because if I would realise how awfull those words were wich I was saying I would stop saying them.... Because even though you hurt me sometimes ... you are a lagoon of happiness in my life... and I would never want to loose you.... That is because I love you so much ...

Another reason why  I should never be unkind to you is because you do not desereve any unkindness, or hardschip in life.

Because I just want you life to be full of light, love and happiness...

Let me just hope that lies with me.... your happiness... because I know my happiness is wherever you are... wherever you go and whenever I hear you speak....


Because no matter where I am... when I am in your arms I am home...
I love you

Falling

I know I love you,
But I am just not sure if you still love me too,

You leave me hanging like I am hanging on a cliff,
Ready to fall down to earth and die a painfull death ....

You do not understand where I am coming from,

You are the person where I seemed to have searched for all my life,
And now you are in my reach you are still so far away ...

I had a difficult life so far,
But that all seemd to faid when I looked into your eyes. ..

But now you leave me hanging,
You seem not certain if this is what you want.
If I am what you want.

But whatever your choise is...
Just make sure you know mine ...

I wil love you till the end of days ...
If there is something like reincarnation and I remember you even the slightest bit I will go looking for you .

I will die a thousand death's if it means I could be with you...

But a gazillion other things seem more important in your life ...

And even if everything else is more important that does not matter to me...
you are the one that matters,

You ;re the one that holds my heart ...

Just dont lose your grip or forget that I am hanging on a cliff

Just don't let me fall to the ground ...
Because if you let me fall to the ground ...
I know for sure a big piece of me will die ..

I love you and that is all what matters ....
Please just come back to me ...

So figure out what you want, if it is me or something else out of life ...
But just stop doing this to me ....

It hurts to much to see how unimportant I am
It hurts to damn much....
Like i am already falling and heading for the ground ...
I do not ask for much in life ...
All I ask you is ... Please do not let me fall and hit the ground ...

I love you ...

Thank you for taking care of me

I havent written for a long time
Because I just didn't know how or what I should write

I have been puzzeling and trying to find my way.
I have been lost lately not knowing what I do and what i don't want out of my life

but no matter how lost I get

I know I want to be with you

You can always make me smile,
Even when I would like to just dig a hole crawl into it and die
you make me want to open up,
even tho all I want to do is to crawl in a corner and cry all day long,

I have been sad not knowing what is my fault what happend to me in my life
And what is someone elses

I have been changing my view I had of the world

Sometimes I cry not knowing what I should be thinking or should be feeling,
Or when a feeling shows up out of my past,

When I remember that I opend up,
Like really opend up letting everything down that protected me and I got turned away
When I remember those times all I want to do is cry.... Just cry for what happend and what was

Now i found you I see that I love you
I see that I Miss you when you are not near...

It is weird it is like you are a pièce of me a happy one and that if you are not close to me I don't know where to turn

You are my safe haven,
My harbour where I can just be myself and show my pain without being laughed at or turned away....
Atleast I hope so

I apologize for it that I put that burden on you.....

That I put it on you to help me Guide me through my pain

To help me Find me who I am again
But the better version because you opended my eyes to other ways too perceive
To see myself as a better person...

You once asked if it helpen that you said nice things about me
yes it does,
It is hard to see it but I believe it when you tell me and look deep in too your eyes.
When I look in your eyes I believe I am all those things you say.
And every day I start believing it a little more even if you are not around me and I can't see your eyes, even then I simply believe that you really mean it and believing that makes comes easier to me every day ...... I hope I am not wrong for believing in it ?


You make me a better person
À proud person

But it is hard to find a new way,
Because I can't go back to my old self and old ways I realise that,

But finding a new path is hard and a struggle and that's I what you have seen me do the last few days.....

This is just a message so that everybody can read that I am thankfull that you stick with me even tho it has been hard for me lately ... Even though I have been Sad...

You have been there for me always making me smile,
Always making me laugh
And most Importantly to let me remember what good there is in me which you see,
That you help me remember that there is a reason to love the world Because you are in it, remember that even when I break someone .... Not just someone you Will be there to catch me and hold me... And care that I am Sad.....

I think that that is a important reason why I have been able to cry lately even though I havent been for years.....

I couldn't cry for years Because I knew nobody would care Or that they would be glad I was Crying Because that would mean they had won ....

But Now I know if I cry someone does care .... So Now I met you I can finaly start to heal and better myself.... Because I know you care... or atleast I believe you do

And for that I thank you very much ..... I love you.....

I'm sorry for what I might have done wrong

It is horrible,
When you know that the person you love,

That the person you care about is mad at you or indiffrent.
It is awfull to feel that lost to wonder.....


To just wonder is he still mad,
does he still love me,
am I still worth the things he thought I was worth before,

Because I know I was not worthy of it in the first place.

The thought of what he might be doing can be unbearable...
Did he found someone better then me ...

Because you just know he deserves better
and there are alot of better things out there then you...
you just wonder ...

if he finally found something better to do then waste you time on you...
when they become distant...

But even though these thoughts will keep me up all night...

I somewhere hope that he still loves me....
Still cares ... that the distance I feel is just a illusion..

Or do I just simply miss him so much that I imagine him being disant while he is in fact not...

All I know is that I love him and that he has my heart ...

So for whatever I did wrong ...
I hope that he could find within his heart the strength to forgive ,,,
That he may have sweet dreams tonight....
because I know I will be thinking of him...
and miss him tonight....

love is everything

There was a time when I didn't believe love excisted.
And that if it was out there it would never be meant for me.

That is why I always thought that I would not go and try to find love,
Because if I would find it,
it would only hurt me,
or atleast so I thought

But then there was you,
At first a bit arrogant,
But when I got to know you with the purest heart

When you smile at me I melt away,
But that is not everything you challenge me,
You understand me,
and you say you love me ....

The last one I can just hope for it to be true,
Because for the rest I know for sure,
You are special really one of a kind,

I sometimes even think I found one of the last good guys,

So sometimes I look back uppon the time,
that I did believe in love but not for me in this life time,
But then there was you and you changed everything,


Me loving you changed me,
My life got rearranged,

You are everything to me,
So know that I love you,
And I can just hope you really love me too.

Failure

Now I need you the most you are so far away...
I just need to hear your voice telling me everything will be okay ...
That you still love me,

Right now I don't feel good enough for anybody
And certainly not for you...

You are so amazing, so great ,...

And I,

I am nothing but a failure ...
Someone naggs and bitches when I feel down..

You were right not contacting me when I needed you.
I was in a dark place and I wouldn't have been nice to you.

You only deserve the best ...
I don't want you to see me in a dark place.
See the person I can be at times...

Because you are great and amazing,
Therefore I need to be great and amazing...
Or atleast try to be...
Even though I know I will fail...

Tonight I will be so lonely...
So cold...

Because I feel cold and lonely,
I feel worthless

But you are worth everything so I will keep working,

Keep working, working working, untill I come near to the person you deserve to have ,...

I love you

loving you

Every time I hear you’re heartbeat I feel happy.

Every time you tell you love me I am the luckiest girl In the world

I seriously hope you mean it when you say you love me …

Because it matters to me ..

Like nothing has ever mattered to me before…

I love you like I never loved somebody else.

You are the person I love the most in my life

So I hope I can stay with you…

So we can talk about our dreams… ‘

Our hopes …

Therefore I hope you know I don’t want to be without you no longer,

Not anymore …

I found my home the place where I belong…. 

A piece of me

Sometimes we hit rough patches… But you and I both know it will be fine.

Because whatever we go through we love each other and nothing is stronger than that

I love being with you… And when I am not near you

I feel empty inside,

Like something is missing,

Therefore I need you with me

Because when you’re not with me,

A piece of me is missing…

And not just a piece one of the more brighter parts …

I love you with all my heart…

And you are my heart

Thanks to you I want to be a better person,

Thanks to you I have a reason to love life….

Because life is loving someone and being loved…

And I know for sure that I love you …. 

Smile

You always know how,
for some reason you know how to make me smile,

everytime...

It doesn't matter how sick I am,
It doesn't matter how sad I am,
Or how dissapointed at the world 

Because when I see your face I cannot help but smile...

You are my happiness.
You have been for quiet a while now ..


You make me happy and feel all good inside ...

So know that whenever you are close and I see your face.
Or everytime you send me a message.
Or call me at night ...

No matter how small the gesture...
I will appreciate it because it is coming from you...

And that even the slightest word of sign from you
Will make me smile..

So I hope you will keep giving me those signs,
So that I can keep smiling

Sound asleep

Right Now you are asleep
Your eyes closed,

I Cannot fall asleep for soms reasons
And when I do my schadows hunt me

therefore I look at you...
And how you sleep...
That makes the worries in my head go away,
Because I know that when I fall asleep
you are just a reach of the hand away

But for Now I just look at you
And hope you have the best dreams a person can have
Because you deserve a good nights rest...

I wish you the best dreams you can imagine...

And for me I know that,
when I fall asleep,
I Will be save by your Side....

but for Now I Will just be quiet,
And watch you sleep
And hope you get the best dreams

But soon I Will fall asleep at your Side
Because when you are Here I always veel safe

therefore I know it is just a matter of time,
Before I fall asleep in your arms
And at your Side

I love everything about you

Yesterday you told me you learned from your mistakes
and that you would never put annyones happiness infront of your own ever again

First that hurt
Second it annoyed me

But after the first two moments I understood

How could I not?

You were hurt once upon a time really bad and I understand…

But even though you also told me,

That you would not be worth it to be put, by me, in front of my own happiness

I will do it anyways.

The love I have for you in my heart is big…

If I had my way I would spend most moments with you..

You are worth everything I have,

Everything I am

Everything I stand for

And everything I will ever be…

So even though I got hurt more than enough.

You are amazing and I want to take that risk

You have no say in it

Your happiness is more important than mine

You are more important.

You are amazing,

Therefore never think anything less of yourself again then you are worth everything

Because you are truly worth everything ... 

So even when you don't think you are worth it 

I think you are ... 

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Heartbeat

You make me feel happy,
And feel good inside.

Your unique for me
And therefore make me feel all fuzzy and warm inside,

As I look in your eyes
I hope you see my love for you

As I lay in your arms
I hope you think I belong there too

As you feel my heartbeat
I hope you know it beats for you

There is no place where I would rather be
Then in your arms
Feeling your heartbeat
hoping it beats just a little bit for me...

different yet the same

We are so different,
But yet we are the same.

You understand me and,
It is the first time that I can say someone really does understand
The way I think
The way I feel
What makes me tick inside is no secret to you.

It is like I have known you for a long time.

We have common interest
We like the same music,
The way we think is similar
Yet we sometimes want to pull out each others hair.

But no matter how mad I get at you.
You always know that I love you.

No matter if I am yelling at you
or am just squinting my eyes .

You know that deep down,
no matter what the given situation is
I love you
And you will always be in my heart.

So no matter how different we are.
I will keep my eyes on what is the same,
And the differences just make it interesting
Because that is what caught my eyes the first time I met you

So remember it doesn't matter if we are in a moment
When we think the same which is great

Or are in a situation where we think different.
Because all I know is that you being different,
makes me love you
makes me want to hold you

Because our differences make for a lively and interesting discussion.

Therefore you being different from everyone else makes you unique.
And makes you mine.
That makes me love you.

So differences aren't bad.
It is just the way you look at it.

Because you being different is the way
I fell in love with you
and is the reason I still want to be with you.
Because you are a good person,
The best I ever had the privilege to get to know,

And hopefully you will stay that unique person to me.
And even more I hope that you think the same way about me.
And want to stay at my side,
Because I know I always want to stay at yours.

New Year 's Eve

Today is the day of New Year’s Eve,

When the sun came up a new day started

And when the sun goes leaves is in the dark tonight when it goes down

A new year will be starting,

First of all I would like to wish you all a good new year,

That everything may be peaceful and full of happiness for every single one of you.

That for the people who have been going through a though time find a way to leave those behind them, and those who haven’t been the best person they could be that they will better themselves and therefore make the life of others better as well..

So be kind to the others around you threat the people the way you would want to be threated yourself. Make a promise to yourself to make yourself a better and nicer person to be around even though most of you already are good people I believe the people you love always deserve the best you got. Therefore I believe that everyone should promise themselves every year to become a better person, a kinder person even if it is just for a little while.

And for myself I of course promise myself to become a better person so the people I love will get the best, and only the best is what they deserve.

It is a New Year. Therefore a new beginning I will leave everything behind me what went wrong in 2011 and let it stay there. This new year is a new start for all of us.

2012 is important to me it is a new start for me, a new beginning for me, a new start where I waited for so long. And for the person I love who can’t be with me today. I love you a lot and I wished you were here I will be thinking of you and keeping your heart close to mine not only tonight and this day but for the rest of my life.  So know even though you’re not here I will be thinking of you and wish you the best for this new beginning this new year in which I hope we will spend a lot of time together.

That we will smile, laugh and even sometimes cry

But as long as I am with you everything ( I know it will),

Will be fine..

So I hope I see you soon in this new year that is approaching soon.

And to everyone else I wish you a blessed 2012.

Happy New Year’s