Falling

I know I love you,
But I am just not sure if you still love me too,

You leave me hanging like I am hanging on a cliff,
Ready to fall down to earth and die a painfull death ....

You do not understand where I am coming from,

You are the person where I seemed to have searched for all my life,
And now you are in my reach you are still so far away ...

I had a difficult life so far,
But that all seemd to faid when I looked into your eyes. ..

But now you leave me hanging,
You seem not certain if this is what you want.
If I am what you want.

But whatever your choise is...
Just make sure you know mine ...

I wil love you till the end of days ...
If there is something like reincarnation and I remember you even the slightest bit I will go looking for you .

I will die a thousand death's if it means I could be with you...

But a gazillion other things seem more important in your life ...

And even if everything else is more important that does not matter to me...
you are the one that matters,

You ;re the one that holds my heart ...

Just dont lose your grip or forget that I am hanging on a cliff

Just don't let me fall to the ground ...
Because if you let me fall to the ground ...
I know for sure a big piece of me will die ..

I love you and that is all what matters ....
Please just come back to me ...

So figure out what you want, if it is me or something else out of life ...
But just stop doing this to me ....

It hurts to much to see how unimportant I am
It hurts to damn much....
Like i am already falling and heading for the ground ...
I do not ask for much in life ...
All I ask you is ... Please do not let me fall and hit the ground ...

I love you ...

Thank you for taking care of me

I havent written for a long time
Because I just didn't know how or what I should write

I have been puzzeling and trying to find my way.
I have been lost lately not knowing what I do and what i don't want out of my life

but no matter how lost I get

I know I want to be with you

You can always make me smile,
Even when I would like to just dig a hole crawl into it and die
you make me want to open up,
even tho all I want to do is to crawl in a corner and cry all day long,

I have been sad not knowing what is my fault what happend to me in my life
And what is someone elses

I have been changing my view I had of the world

Sometimes I cry not knowing what I should be thinking or should be feeling,
Or when a feeling shows up out of my past,

When I remember that I opend up,
Like really opend up letting everything down that protected me and I got turned away
When I remember those times all I want to do is cry.... Just cry for what happend and what was

Now i found you I see that I love you
I see that I Miss you when you are not near...

It is weird it is like you are a pièce of me a happy one and that if you are not close to me I don't know where to turn

You are my safe haven,
My harbour where I can just be myself and show my pain without being laughed at or turned away....
Atleast I hope so

I apologize for it that I put that burden on you.....

That I put it on you to help me Guide me through my pain

To help me Find me who I am again
But the better version because you opended my eyes to other ways too perceive
To see myself as a better person...

You once asked if it helpen that you said nice things about me
yes it does,
It is hard to see it but I believe it when you tell me and look deep in too your eyes.
When I look in your eyes I believe I am all those things you say.
And every day I start believing it a little more even if you are not around me and I can't see your eyes, even then I simply believe that you really mean it and believing that makes comes easier to me every day ...... I hope I am not wrong for believing in it ?


You make me a better person
À proud person

But it is hard to find a new way,
Because I can't go back to my old self and old ways I realise that,

But finding a new path is hard and a struggle and that's I what you have seen me do the last few days.....

This is just a message so that everybody can read that I am thankfull that you stick with me even tho it has been hard for me lately ... Even though I have been Sad...

You have been there for me always making me smile,
Always making me laugh
And most Importantly to let me remember what good there is in me which you see,
That you help me remember that there is a reason to love the world Because you are in it, remember that even when I break someone .... Not just someone you Will be there to catch me and hold me... And care that I am Sad.....

I think that that is a important reason why I have been able to cry lately even though I havent been for years.....

I couldn't cry for years Because I knew nobody would care Or that they would be glad I was Crying Because that would mean they had won ....

But Now I know if I cry someone does care .... So Now I met you I can finaly start to heal and better myself.... Because I know you care... or atleast I believe you do

And for that I thank you very much ..... I love you.....

I'm sorry for what I might have done wrong

It is horrible,
When you know that the person you love,

That the person you care about is mad at you or indiffrent.
It is awfull to feel that lost to wonder.....


To just wonder is he still mad,
does he still love me,
am I still worth the things he thought I was worth before,

Because I know I was not worthy of it in the first place.

The thought of what he might be doing can be unbearable...
Did he found someone better then me ...

Because you just know he deserves better
and there are alot of better things out there then you...
you just wonder ...

if he finally found something better to do then waste you time on you...
when they become distant...

But even though these thoughts will keep me up all night...

I somewhere hope that he still loves me....
Still cares ... that the distance I feel is just a illusion..

Or do I just simply miss him so much that I imagine him being disant while he is in fact not...

All I know is that I love him and that he has my heart ...

So for whatever I did wrong ...
I hope that he could find within his heart the strength to forgive ,,,
That he may have sweet dreams tonight....
because I know I will be thinking of him...
and miss him tonight....

love is everything

There was a time when I didn't believe love excisted.
And that if it was out there it would never be meant for me.

That is why I always thought that I would not go and try to find love,
Because if I would find it,
it would only hurt me,
or atleast so I thought

But then there was you,
At first a bit arrogant,
But when I got to know you with the purest heart

When you smile at me I melt away,
But that is not everything you challenge me,
You understand me,
and you say you love me ....

The last one I can just hope for it to be true,
Because for the rest I know for sure,
You are special really one of a kind,

I sometimes even think I found one of the last good guys,

So sometimes I look back uppon the time,
that I did believe in love but not for me in this life time,
But then there was you and you changed everything,


Me loving you changed me,
My life got rearranged,

You are everything to me,
So know that I love you,
And I can just hope you really love me too.

Footsteps

nobody can compare to you..

you are the best person I ever met

You are awesome and very close to perfect…

But you are already perfect for me.

You are great or at least, very close to become what will be great…

Because you are so great you cast a very big shadow,

Therefore everybody stands in your shadow

You are leaving a very big shoe print in my life when you walk in and out daily,

Not only in my life but in everyone’s.

Your shoe print is very big and it will leave an emptiness when you are gone

I will miss you always when you are not near…

And you say that I should do something else with my time when you are not around

Or be busy with someone else

but nobody  will ever be able to fill the footsteps you leave behind,

So as long you are not here …

There will be an emptiness inside of me…

Because you are perfect to me,

You are so great that nobody can compare to how great you are

And nothing, no matter what I do, or who I am with,

Nothing will stop me from missing you, because nobody is good enough compared to you..

And no hobby is nicer than being around you…

You are just so perfect for me 

loving you

Every time I hear you’re heartbeat I feel happy.

Every time you tell you love me I am the luckiest girl In the world

I seriously hope you mean it when you say you love me …

Because it matters to me ..

Like nothing has ever mattered to me before…

I love you like I never loved somebody else.

You are the person I love the most in my life

So I hope I can stay with you…

So we can talk about our dreams… ‘

Our hopes …

Therefore I hope you know I don’t want to be without you no longer,

Not anymore …

I found my home the place where I belong…. 

A piece of me

Sometimes we hit rough patches… But you and I both know it will be fine.

Because whatever we go through we love each other and nothing is stronger than that

I love being with you… And when I am not near you

I feel empty inside,

Like something is missing,

Therefore I need you with me

Because when you’re not with me,

A piece of me is missing…

And not just a piece one of the more brighter parts …

I love you with all my heart…

And you are my heart

Thanks to you I want to be a better person,

Thanks to you I have a reason to love life….

Because life is loving someone and being loved…

And I know for sure that I love you …. 

Sound asleep

Right Now you are asleep
Your eyes closed,

I Cannot fall asleep for soms reasons
And when I do my schadows hunt me

therefore I look at you...
And how you sleep...
That makes the worries in my head go away,
Because I know that when I fall asleep
you are just a reach of the hand away

But for Now I just look at you
And hope you have the best dreams a person can have
Because you deserve a good nights rest...

I wish you the best dreams you can imagine...

And for me I know that,
when I fall asleep,
I Will be save by your Side....

but for Now I Will just be quiet,
And watch you sleep
And hope you get the best dreams

But soon I Will fall asleep at your Side
Because when you are Here I always veel safe

therefore I know it is just a matter of time,
Before I fall asleep in your arms
And at your Side

I love everything about you

Yesterday you told me you learned from your mistakes
and that you would never put annyones happiness infront of your own ever again

First that hurt
Second it annoyed me

But after the first two moments I understood

How could I not?

You were hurt once upon a time really bad and I understand…

But even though you also told me,

That you would not be worth it to be put, by me, in front of my own happiness

I will do it anyways.

The love I have for you in my heart is big…

If I had my way I would spend most moments with you..

You are worth everything I have,

Everything I am

Everything I stand for

And everything I will ever be…

So even though I got hurt more than enough.

You are amazing and I want to take that risk

You have no say in it

Your happiness is more important than mine

You are more important.

You are amazing,

Therefore never think anything less of yourself again then you are worth everything

Because you are truly worth everything ... 

So even when you don't think you are worth it 

I think you are ... 

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Love is not selfish

Love is not selfish

It is not bias,

Love just means that you no matter what,

Wish the other person happiness in life.

Even if that means that you have to hand in some of your own happiness.

So loving someone is unconditionally 

It is wishing someone all the happiness you can give them.

And if that is not enough letting them go 

So that they get their happiness somewhere else.

So remember love is not selfish,

It is unconditionally

So share your love with others...

So you can make the person you love happy

Even if it is just for a little while ..

But that is all what matters the little happy moments...

Because those you will look back on the rest of your life...

 

Heartbeat

You make me feel happy,
And feel good inside.

Your unique for me
And therefore make me feel all fuzzy and warm inside,

As I look in your eyes
I hope you see my love for you

As I lay in your arms
I hope you think I belong there too

As you feel my heartbeat
I hope you know it beats for you

There is no place where I would rather be
Then in your arms
Feeling your heartbeat
hoping it beats just a little bit for me...