I love you.. always

It has been a long time...

since I last came on here and wrote something....

but today I just felt like I had to write something ...

It is important that the person I love remembers that I did not forget him. That I love him just as much.. or even more then the day before ...

Even though I not always show it I am always greatful you are here with me, or when I can just hear the sound of your voice....

I know I can be stupid, or even a pain in the ass at times ...

But generally overall I just love you even if I do not show you.that at times...

I do not have one bad feeling towards you at or in my heart ...
Sometimes I say awfull things, but that just means I lost my way... and lost the right words that belong to describe you....

Because if I would realise how awfull those words were wich I was saying I would stop saying them.... Because even though you hurt me sometimes ... you are a lagoon of happiness in my life... and I would never want to loose you.... That is because I love you so much ...

Another reason why  I should never be unkind to you is because you do not desereve any unkindness, or hardschip in life.

Because I just want you life to be full of light, love and happiness...

Let me just hope that lies with me.... your happiness... because I know my happiness is wherever you are... wherever you go and whenever I hear you speak....


Because no matter where I am... when I am in your arms I am home...
I love you

Thank you for taking care of me

I havent written for a long time
Because I just didn't know how or what I should write

I have been puzzeling and trying to find my way.
I have been lost lately not knowing what I do and what i don't want out of my life

but no matter how lost I get

I know I want to be with you

You can always make me smile,
Even when I would like to just dig a hole crawl into it and die
you make me want to open up,
even tho all I want to do is to crawl in a corner and cry all day long,

I have been sad not knowing what is my fault what happend to me in my life
And what is someone elses

I have been changing my view I had of the world

Sometimes I cry not knowing what I should be thinking or should be feeling,
Or when a feeling shows up out of my past,

When I remember that I opend up,
Like really opend up letting everything down that protected me and I got turned away
When I remember those times all I want to do is cry.... Just cry for what happend and what was

Now i found you I see that I love you
I see that I Miss you when you are not near...

It is weird it is like you are a pièce of me a happy one and that if you are not close to me I don't know where to turn

You are my safe haven,
My harbour where I can just be myself and show my pain without being laughed at or turned away....
Atleast I hope so

I apologize for it that I put that burden on you.....

That I put it on you to help me Guide me through my pain

To help me Find me who I am again
But the better version because you opended my eyes to other ways too perceive
To see myself as a better person...

You once asked if it helpen that you said nice things about me
yes it does,
It is hard to see it but I believe it when you tell me and look deep in too your eyes.
When I look in your eyes I believe I am all those things you say.
And every day I start believing it a little more even if you are not around me and I can't see your eyes, even then I simply believe that you really mean it and believing that makes comes easier to me every day ...... I hope I am not wrong for believing in it ?


You make me a better person
À proud person

But it is hard to find a new way,
Because I can't go back to my old self and old ways I realise that,

But finding a new path is hard and a struggle and that's I what you have seen me do the last few days.....

This is just a message so that everybody can read that I am thankfull that you stick with me even tho it has been hard for me lately ... Even though I have been Sad...

You have been there for me always making me smile,
Always making me laugh
And most Importantly to let me remember what good there is in me which you see,
That you help me remember that there is a reason to love the world Because you are in it, remember that even when I break someone .... Not just someone you Will be there to catch me and hold me... And care that I am Sad.....

I think that that is a important reason why I have been able to cry lately even though I havent been for years.....

I couldn't cry for years Because I knew nobody would care Or that they would be glad I was Crying Because that would mean they had won ....

But Now I know if I cry someone does care .... So Now I met you I can finaly start to heal and better myself.... Because I know you care... or atleast I believe you do

And for that I thank you very much ..... I love you.....

Sound asleep

Right Now you are asleep
Your eyes closed,

I Cannot fall asleep for soms reasons
And when I do my schadows hunt me

therefore I look at you...
And how you sleep...
That makes the worries in my head go away,
Because I know that when I fall asleep
you are just a reach of the hand away

But for Now I just look at you
And hope you have the best dreams a person can have
Because you deserve a good nights rest...

I wish you the best dreams you can imagine...

And for me I know that,
when I fall asleep,
I Will be save by your Side....

but for Now I Will just be quiet,
And watch you sleep
And hope you get the best dreams

But soon I Will fall asleep at your Side
Because when you are Here I always veel safe

therefore I know it is just a matter of time,
Before I fall asleep in your arms
And at your Side

you dont know how you touched my life....

Today is the day all I can think about is that I want you here

Need you here …

I want to hear the sound of your voice, feel your arms wrapped around me during the night .. Because that Is the only way I can sleep..

Because I know you’re the only one who will keep me safe… or at least I hope you will

Now I know the time is coming near you cannot be as much around me as before it hurts.

You’re the only thing I really want to have. And I need you beside me every night

Because I think I finally found the place where I can finally find some peace.

But that place is with you

So at the times you’re not with me the peace and the love is gone…

And I miss you every second when you’re not near..  

So be here whenever you can with me your arms wrapped around me holding me tight…

So know that wherever I am .. wherever I go your always welcome to be with me..

You always welcome to just walk in… I would never mind… I would just love to see your face

So come to my place whenever you can.. because without you it isn’t home

Because for me you are my home as soon you wrap your arms around me

It doesn’t matter where.. It the only place I want to be

So come back here soon… so I can be home again…

I miss you…. And I hope that I really am right with what I think about you.

That you will keep me save…

I think I found my destiny with you but I just hope I am not wrong…

I love you wherever you are

But be aware. .. I got hurt enough…

I am not the easiest person to be around with and I realize that…

But whenever I am putting you through hardship .. know I trust you not to hurt me…

Because for that I am still afraid…

So keep my trust and don’t hurt me please..

Because I have been hurt enough… and I can’t bear any more pain for a while …

Just know whenever I am being hard to be around

That I love you and that you have my heart…

I hope that makes it easier to put up with me…

When I am trying to become the person you want…

Just give it time… Because I love you for real so try to stick around…

Therefore please be patient with me so I can show how much…

I love you, trust you, have faith in you and want to be with you …