Thank you for taking care of me

I havent written for a long time
Because I just didn't know how or what I should write

I have been puzzeling and trying to find my way.
I have been lost lately not knowing what I do and what i don't want out of my life

but no matter how lost I get

I know I want to be with you

You can always make me smile,
Even when I would like to just dig a hole crawl into it and die
you make me want to open up,
even tho all I want to do is to crawl in a corner and cry all day long,

I have been sad not knowing what is my fault what happend to me in my life
And what is someone elses

I have been changing my view I had of the world

Sometimes I cry not knowing what I should be thinking or should be feeling,
Or when a feeling shows up out of my past,

When I remember that I opend up,
Like really opend up letting everything down that protected me and I got turned away
When I remember those times all I want to do is cry.... Just cry for what happend and what was

Now i found you I see that I love you
I see that I Miss you when you are not near...

It is weird it is like you are a pièce of me a happy one and that if you are not close to me I don't know where to turn

You are my safe haven,
My harbour where I can just be myself and show my pain without being laughed at or turned away....
Atleast I hope so

I apologize for it that I put that burden on you.....

That I put it on you to help me Guide me through my pain

To help me Find me who I am again
But the better version because you opended my eyes to other ways too perceive
To see myself as a better person...

You once asked if it helpen that you said nice things about me
yes it does,
It is hard to see it but I believe it when you tell me and look deep in too your eyes.
When I look in your eyes I believe I am all those things you say.
And every day I start believing it a little more even if you are not around me and I can't see your eyes, even then I simply believe that you really mean it and believing that makes comes easier to me every day ...... I hope I am not wrong for believing in it ?


You make me a better person
À proud person

But it is hard to find a new way,
Because I can't go back to my old self and old ways I realise that,

But finding a new path is hard and a struggle and that's I what you have seen me do the last few days.....

This is just a message so that everybody can read that I am thankfull that you stick with me even tho it has been hard for me lately ... Even though I have been Sad...

You have been there for me always making me smile,
Always making me laugh
And most Importantly to let me remember what good there is in me which you see,
That you help me remember that there is a reason to love the world Because you are in it, remember that even when I break someone .... Not just someone you Will be there to catch me and hold me... And care that I am Sad.....

I think that that is a important reason why I have been able to cry lately even though I havent been for years.....

I couldn't cry for years Because I knew nobody would care Or that they would be glad I was Crying Because that would mean they had won ....

But Now I know if I cry someone does care .... So Now I met you I can finaly start to heal and better myself.... Because I know you care... or atleast I believe you do

And for that I thank you very much ..... I love you.....

different yet the same

We are so different,
But yet we are the same.

You understand me and,
It is the first time that I can say someone really does understand
The way I think
The way I feel
What makes me tick inside is no secret to you.

It is like I have known you for a long time.

We have common interest
We like the same music,
The way we think is similar
Yet we sometimes want to pull out each others hair.

But no matter how mad I get at you.
You always know that I love you.

No matter if I am yelling at you
or am just squinting my eyes .

You know that deep down,
no matter what the given situation is
I love you
And you will always be in my heart.

So no matter how different we are.
I will keep my eyes on what is the same,
And the differences just make it interesting
Because that is what caught my eyes the first time I met you

So remember it doesn't matter if we are in a moment
When we think the same which is great

Or are in a situation where we think different.
Because all I know is that you being different,
makes me love you
makes me want to hold you

Because our differences make for a lively and interesting discussion.

Therefore you being different from everyone else makes you unique.
And makes you mine.
That makes me love you.

So differences aren't bad.
It is just the way you look at it.

Because you being different is the way
I fell in love with you
and is the reason I still want to be with you.
Because you are a good person,
The best I ever had the privilege to get to know,

And hopefully you will stay that unique person to me.
And even more I hope that you think the same way about me.
And want to stay at my side,
Because I know I always want to stay at yours.