Now I need you the most you are so far away...
I just need to hear your voice telling me everything will be okay ...
That you still love me,
Right now I don't feel good enough for anybody
And certainly not for you...
You are so amazing, so great ,...
And I,
I am nothing but a failure ...
Someone naggs and bitches when I feel down..
You were right not contacting me when I needed you.
I was in a dark place and I wouldn't have been nice to you.
You only deserve the best ...
I don't want you to see me in a dark place.
See the person I can be at times...
Because you are great and amazing,
Therefore I need to be great and amazing...
Or atleast try to be...
Even though I know I will fail...
Tonight I will be so lonely...
So cold...
Because I feel cold and lonely,
I feel worthless
But you are worth everything so I will keep working,
Keep working, working working, untill I come near to the person you deserve to have ,...
I love you
Ofcourse you're good enough sweetheart!!
ReplyDeleteWhy you turned so sad after writing so many sweet things :(??
Hugs from Sunny Seychelles :)
Thanks for the comment :)
ReplyDeleteEspecially for this one ...
I turned sad because the only person who makes me believe I am good enough is not close to me now ...
I just feel alone and sad at the moment...
But know that my feelings for that person has not changed ...
I love him like I never loved anybody else...
I just decided to write more about myself,
more then the love I have for him.
So everybody can understand how much he really means to me.
And because it makes me feel better to write it all down because then i can let a bit of it go...
Hugs back from the Netherlands