Falling

I know I love you,
But I am just not sure if you still love me too,

You leave me hanging like I am hanging on a cliff,
Ready to fall down to earth and die a painfull death ....

You do not understand where I am coming from,

You are the person where I seemed to have searched for all my life,
And now you are in my reach you are still so far away ...

I had a difficult life so far,
But that all seemd to faid when I looked into your eyes. ..

But now you leave me hanging,
You seem not certain if this is what you want.
If I am what you want.

But whatever your choise is...
Just make sure you know mine ...

I wil love you till the end of days ...
If there is something like reincarnation and I remember you even the slightest bit I will go looking for you .

I will die a thousand death's if it means I could be with you...

But a gazillion other things seem more important in your life ...

And even if everything else is more important that does not matter to me...
you are the one that matters,

You ;re the one that holds my heart ...

Just dont lose your grip or forget that I am hanging on a cliff

Just don't let me fall to the ground ...
Because if you let me fall to the ground ...
I know for sure a big piece of me will die ..

I love you and that is all what matters ....
Please just come back to me ...

So figure out what you want, if it is me or something else out of life ...
But just stop doing this to me ....

It hurts to much to see how unimportant I am
It hurts to damn much....
Like i am already falling and heading for the ground ...
I do not ask for much in life ...
All I ask you is ... Please do not let me fall and hit the ground ...

I love you ...

Footsteps

nobody can compare to you..

you are the best person I ever met

You are awesome and very close to perfect…

But you are already perfect for me.

You are great or at least, very close to become what will be great…

Because you are so great you cast a very big shadow,

Therefore everybody stands in your shadow

You are leaving a very big shoe print in my life when you walk in and out daily,

Not only in my life but in everyone’s.

Your shoe print is very big and it will leave an emptiness when you are gone

I will miss you always when you are not near…

And you say that I should do something else with my time when you are not around

Or be busy with someone else

but nobody  will ever be able to fill the footsteps you leave behind,

So as long you are not here …

There will be an emptiness inside of me…

Because you are perfect to me,

You are so great that nobody can compare to how great you are

And nothing, no matter what I do, or who I am with,

Nothing will stop me from missing you, because nobody is good enough compared to you..

And no hobby is nicer than being around you…

You are just so perfect for me 

crossroads

Today I have been working to let all the pain go…

I think I am on the right track of the road I need to walk on..

But “two steps forward is one step back is the saying.”

And that Is certainly true

Because I work as hard as I can to let my past go… But is hard enough

Now sometimes I am confronted by someone else’s past and of course in that past are things I dislike as well..

Or dislike is the wrong word…. Is hard to hear or hard to handle that is a better description of how I feel.

But you can’t judge someone by his or her past,… Then there is no walking forward with that person.

Therefore when that happens and you end up on that crossroad.

There is a choice you have to make..

The first option being you decide his/her past is too hard to deal with or to be confronted with .. and therefore you don’t believe him/her on his/ her word then the only option is and take my advice when you’re in that situation split up… You will never get over it if you don’t love him/ her enough all you guys will do is fight about everything especially the things you can’t get past…

The second option is, talk about everything and make sure that way everything is out in the open… Never lie about anything… because that will badger the trust the people who asked you the question irreversible, and from that point there is no turning back you had your chance.

 So be honest and open when you want and give answers then that is the only way. For me this is the best option because I really am a person who is attached to the truth.. And I can’t live with unanswered questions and not knowing therefore I ask a lot of questions… and even though I see it is hard for the other party sometime… As long they tell the truth and think I am worth it there is no problem… And if there is any pain at the other side by telling you these truths respect them that they are honest because that is what you asked for those answers… Therefore and that is the tricky part NEVER be mad if they tell you the truth because that is not what they deserve…  They are opening up to you most of the time at a big personal cost and if you then go whining and sulking about the fact that it is unfair they won’t ever tell you the truth again… And that is their good right.. So when you ask for questions don’t be pissed at the answers … (unless you find out he/ she lied ofcourse)

Then of course there is a third option… Stop being so difficult if you can put it behind you with knowing as less as possible, what you don’t know can’t hurt you… so let the past be the past and judge the present… I wish I had it in me to be that way…

So I am on the right track but like I said still a long way to go…

Thank god the people I care for answer my questions even if it is at a big personal cost (or at least I think they do… and I hope their truthful…)

I hope that the people I care for understand this story and understand where I am coming from.

And like I asked so many times before already be patience with me… I can’t help it…

I am doing the best I can…

But it is hard to be confronted by things….

But then you have to make a choice….

And I made mine …

I choose the path of love… even if it comes with pain sometimes…

I pick you….  So be  truthful please that is the only thing I ask for (and of course the patience)

And now I picked for you I will go all the way ..  So be aware where you stepped into :P

I won’t let you go anymore. ..